When I've started the internship, I thought that I can't last long and I have proofed to myself that I should not let thoughts restricted my passion. Besides job responsibility, a lot of new things that I've learned throughout the internship process.
Life in the outside world is cruel, and the cruelty that gives you experience. I'm the type of person can trust people easily and not easily to get mad at people unless you really make me piss off. Let me tell you more about it.
After two months of internship most of the job I've done was given away to a particular individual(A) who is also close to me. It is like giving your baby away. At the beginning I was so mad and I felt betrayed. Then, I've tried to confront and thing get worse. Maybe, I'm just over exaggerate for small matters. This incident really bring me down. I became an angry person. There is no longer smile on my face unlike before. I don't want to look at the face and I don't even want to talk to A. I just don't know how can I cope for such betrayal.
When people are angry you don't rub salt into the wound if you want to make things better. Maybe I was mad because there is no effort to mend back the friendship from this particular person. My other friend tried to calm me down by making me thing of the positives side of A. But I become angrier as the my effort seem to mean nothing. Towards the end, I gave up. If A don't want to do anything why must I. From there, I've learned that my friendship means nothing to A. I try to channel my anger by doing distracting myself to other thing.
I've learned not to put trust too much even he or she is your close friend. People can do anything just to be ahead from you. Even your close friend can be jealous of your success.Its not I'm saying that I'm a good person. A true friend will know when you are angry, why you are mad and will understand you for why you are blaming them.
I'm back to reality, it is not a happy ever after fairy tales out there in reality. Anger can harm you and your relationship. Don't keep grunge as it would destruct you. Whatever happens there must be a reason behind it. Love the people who is treat you right and worth to get the touch of your love. Life can be harsh and it depends on you how to cope with it. Till then...
