Save Me...

So this is who I am, and this all i know and all i can give.Accept me for what I am. I must choose to live my life as I'm drown with the flow for letting my heart control my head. It had hurt me the most. It had cut me into pieces that I just dont know where do I stand now.

I had made my journey through half way.You came and shine my life and then you live me wondering in the dark alone. You take away my fame and glory without mercy.

But...during my fall there is always a life saver that I should realize and appreciate them or I will lost everything and have nothing at all. Where should I go from here. I will keep the memory of the past just as memory that stop by in my life a while a go...

To the life saver please dont leave me without saying goodbye or perhaps please dont leave me but stay by my side without fail be there for me. Because just that is what I will do and can do for you no matter what happens.

TRUST!!!

Trust is the key word in a relationship. No matter what is your relationship is whether it’s a love or friendship if there is no trust it can lead you to a downturn in your relationship.

Trust is a single word that has its yin and yang. It can bring love and happiness and it also can bring breakdown and broken hearted.

In relationship, you need to trust each other never put the doubt at the first place in the list. Then the miss nice jealousy will rise and eventually you will fight over a small simple matter. When there is no trust all sort of thinking will rise and it can drive you crazy.

But never ever betray the trust of your partner or friend even your family. It can hurt them and cut them deeply and eventually if you repeating doing it they will loss trust on you and it will eventually decreased the love for you.

From my experience you can lie once or twice but if you keep doing it, you will lose all the trust given to you bit by bit. Do you know how hurt it is to know someone that you trust betray you and it takes time to heal and build the trust back…

Arus Perjalanan Hidup Ini...

Kini, aku hanyut dengan arus. Arus yang aku sendiri tidak tahu akan membawa aku ke mana. Aku tidak tahu lagi ke mana arah tuju ku ini. Aku terlalu banyak menyimpan persoalan dan bimbang untuk berganjak dari tempat aku berdiri kini kerana bimbang aku akan terluka suatu hari nanti.

Mungkin aku mampu menghadapi jawapannya dengan tabah atau mungkin aku tidak dapat menerimanya.Kadang kala aku meragui diriku adakah aku akan berpeluang merasai perasaan cinta itu atau mungkin aku akan lebih gembira tanpanya. Persoalannya jika ada cinta untukku bilakah waktunya???

Hidup ini telah banyak mengajar aku untuk berdikari namun hati kecil ini masih memberontak mahukan perhatian dari yang lain. Sudah acap kali aku menagih perhatian dan kasih sayang namun tidak juga aku miliki. Haruskah aku menyatakannya sedangkan ia harus datang dari hati sendiri… Pada hakikatnya dalam senyum aku sengsara dan tidak difahami.

Air mata terus menitis bila merenungkanya. Adakah aku sekuat yang aku fikirkan untuk menghadapinya atau aku akan hanyut dan membinasakan diri ini. Mungkin pada hakikatnya aku harus renungkan keperitan dan kepahitan ini dan jadikan ia sebagai panduan agar aku terus bangun dan terus melangkah untuk kehidupan yang lebih baik dan menjadi orang yang lebih berguna.

Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan dalam menghadapi dugaan dan cabaranmu sesungguhnya aku tidak mampu menghadapinya. Sekali aku melangkah Kau biarlah aku meneruskannya tanpa menoleh ke belakang.

ATTENTION, HANDLE WITH CARE !!!

Through out the years I’ve learned a lot buy yet, I still don’t get it myself. I don’t know what I’m going to say is right or not but it’s from my point of view. I’ve learn what a woman actually wants in life can never be understand by the opposite sex. They will lead you from one to another clue but sometime gives up as there is no respond. I don’t know whether the clue is wrong or the guy is to slow to understand or perhaps couldn’t be bothered to see with their eyes.

The fragile heart of us needs attention and care no matter how independent we are. You do not need to say you love us but be there for us, appreciate what we’ve done for you.

Then in one part I’ve learn that both guy and girl can be so egoist. Both can be in love but hardly to admit their feelings cause of afraid f rejection. This sometimes has the pros and cons as it can be too late when you realize how deep your love for her or him is. Once gone, only then you will realize the importance of her or him to you.

Another thing I’ve learned, no matter how in love you are or how deep is your love, jealousy tend to be conquering sometimes and none tend to back off once in crisis. Both can hardly admit their fault and start to raise the voice then come to the part lets brake off. Sometimes it’s like you are watching a drama that we know in the end will be okay.

But sometimes guy themselves can be complicated. They don’t want to understand us and sometimes when you can be straightforward but you lingered around and make us girls think the other way and that is how we sometimes felt being manipulated. For me I know you are thinking to not to hurt us but the more you try to be careful the more you make us cried.

The list can go on but I guess the time is not right… I sometimes feel that I might be happy without love just like what other says and with what I’ve learned and see but deeply I would like to try the LOVE experience. Feels the joy and pain in relationship on my own not by the others. Maybe I should enjoy my life as it is now. Don’t look back but look ahead. There is a saying of live your life to the fullest. Is it just a saying or its real? It’s hard to say now but I will leave it to my fate to direct me to my future. And at the mean time I will spare my life to the fullest.