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Blind to See It

This semester break turns out to be unexpected as I’m working as usual… According to the real planned I was suppose to have my holiday getaway this break but unexpectedly I got a job offer.

A lot of happy and sad things happen during this time. One thing that happens during this time had actually brought me down a bit. One day, I finished my work and Sara is on leave so I call this particular guy I know with expectations he won’t answer it. At the last ring he picks it up and we chat for a while then he says he is at the same area so he asked me to hang out. I agreed plus there is excitement, and ten minutes later we met at the meeting point he says I was late and he want to back, with the confuse expression I asked him is he sure he says yes. He is just like a child sulking. Before we left he actually shake hands with a few guys which I don’t know and don’t want to ask much. After a few steps, he says he better get going as it is late but to be very frank it is only 6.30p.m. I asked him if he got a date that night don’t stay back just go back I’ll understand and he says nope.

I’ve tried to make him to stay but he insists to go. Then I don’t know from where he says ok and asked me where I want to go. I tried to tell him don’t force yourself if you want to back then just go back there are still a lot of other time we can hang out. Lets just drink at the food court and he insisted to the Dunkin at the Putra. So there we were and I asked him to proceed first as I have run out of my cash he insisted he’ll buy for me and I insist not to. I guess for those who know me will sure know it. Its hard for me to accept people treats even the close one. This is something I should learn, learn to lean on people sometimes.

Back to the story, so there we were in the Dunkin Donut, he asked me what I want at the beginning I just order plain water and he said this is embarrassing he insisted me to order another drink. To please him I took a can drink and while waiting for his order we chat a bit not till 5 minute his order arrives. He was complaining about the drink being hot. Then he walks to the counter makes me wondering and ask to take away his drink with a little bit confuse I asked “are we living now” and he says yes. At that point only God knows how I feel. What? It is not even 10 minutes we are here and we are living? It feels like an idiot even the workers there are looking at me smiling as we are living seems like they are making fun of me too. Trying to be nice I invited him to go back with me and i will drop him off as we are in the same way. He said he is tired with trains but a few days later there he is taking train too. I know it was him even from behind. Don't say something you don't mean it. Its your business if you want to do anything but just one thing be honest there is no need of making lies and excuses its not like I'm after you a.k.a. desperate. When people don't like you, you will understand it through their expression or even action.

Where did it goes wrong, I don’t know but one thing I’m sure I really felt like an idiot. Please tell me if any girl out there would not get mad if this happens to them. Guys and girls including me, lets take this to our consideration we don’t have the rights to make people feels like an idiot beliefs in Karma, what goes around will turn around

Komunikasi?

Hidup ini penuh dengan benda yang di luar jangkaan. Cuti semester akan berakhir tidak lama lagi dan dalam masa ini banyak yang berlaku. Sepatutnya, cuti sem ini mengikut rancangan awal aku pergi menjelajah Malaysia akan tetapi aku dapat tawaran berkerja sementara… Kali ini, aku berkerja lagi dengan sahabat baik aku, Sara setelah sekian lama kami tidak berkerja bersama.

Bercakap pasal kerja, ini adalah kali pertama aku berkerja sebagai telefonis pada namanya lah. Dan ia betul-betul menguji kesabaran aku. Pelbagai cabaran yang terpaksa kami lalui untuk membantu memudahkan para pengguna prabayar yang tak sedar kami hanya menjalankan tugas. Ade yang memaki hamun, ade yang cakap tu lansung tak sopan, ade juga pendatang asing yang tak dapat nak berkomunikasi kerana masalah bahasa dan yang paling saya pelik ade je budak-budak yang kecil yang agak kurang sikit ketika bertutur seperti takda adab.

Dan satu yang sering tertanya sejak berkerja disini, bagaimana tiga suku perkerja warga asing seperti Indonesia, Myanmar, Bangladesh Vietnam,Thailand dan senarainya boleh dikatakan panjang dapat berkerja jika mereka sendiri tidak dapat bertutur bahasa Melayu mahupun Inggeris. Sepatutnya jika dah lama mereka disini mereka dah boleh menguasai sedikit sekurang-kurangnya bahasa kita.

Aku tahu semua kerja pasti ada cabarannnya, namun aku akan anggap ia adalah sebagai latihan untuk menghadapi masa depan. Kerja kali ini tak ubah seperti stress management lesson. Walau bertapa susahnya ia kita perlu tahu cara menanganinya jangan biar ia menjatuhkan kita dan jangan selalu merungut jika tidak ia akan menghilangkan semangat kerja kita. Jika kita sentiasa mempersoalkan ape yang terjadi kita mungkin takkan maju ke hadapan sebaliknya akan menjadi mundur.

STOP AND STAY STILL !!!

Looking for my own happiness is something I wish to happen at this short period of time this includes my love that I’m waiting for. A love that will brighten up my life and last forever.

However no one will know when and how the road goes and the day flow except for time. Life is something that you lease expected of it. When you thought you have it all in your hand and realize that there are things you can’t control.

I have learned to lay back and let things goes its way lately but surprisingly it does bring means to me. I just have to choose either to worry or just let my hand off the hook… I know there are certain things you can’t just let go even your heart says so. But when you tries so hard and you are not satisfied with what you fight for it is not worth it.

I wish that I will learn to let go and let time to direct the flow of my road. No one should tell me what I should do and no matter what they say it is my life that I have to worry. Love and happiness will come no matter you are single or not.

THANK YOU

Konvokesyen sepatutnya menjadi sesuatu yang menggembirakan tetapi bagiku aku masih jauh lagi untuk aku banggakan. Detik ini sepatutnya aku berkongsi dengan seseorang yang aku sayangi akan tetapi takdir telah membawa dia pergi sebelum dia sempat melihat apa yang aku capai dan ketiadaan dia membuatkan hari itu tidak ceria.

Mama, you are my strength to stay strong and be what I am. Papa thank you for your support and Jack and Alisha you are the reason for me to stay strong…. Ayang tahu kita selalu gaduh tapi you guys are my whole world. Sara, Fatin, Zie and Yin thank you for understand me and patientwith all sorts of my nonsense..

Namun begitu aku tahu dia disana pasti bangga jika dia masih ada… Aku harus berlajar untuk teruskan hidup ini walaupun ia sangat berat. Satu langkah di setiap masa… Aku tidak mengharapkan simpati tetapi cuma yang diluar sana fahamilah aku kenapa aku begini… Aku masih dan harus belajar masih ade yang nasibnya lagi teruk dari aku… Aku masih ade keluarga yang menyayangi dan rakan-rakan yang aku boleh harapkan. Aku berdoa agar mereka terus bersabar dan terus bersama aku dalam susah senang menghadapi onak ranjau hidup ini…