Another New Beginning

In few more hours, 2012 will end and 2013 will begins. Along the year we made the right choice, mistakes, new friends, enemy without realizing it. What ever happens there must be a reason Allah set behind it.

To me 2012 if full of surprise and speculations. Hope this 2013, I will change to be a better person and may the year ahead is fill with surprises and excitement.

I LOVE MY WORK

Work, what do I hope from it? Lately, I just don't know any longer what I actually want and I can't understands.

In doing a job I always hear people saying we need to perform or do our work with sincerity so that we can achieve our goal easily.

But lately with all the mixed emotions environment really put my patience into a test. With cursing here and there apparently wont do anything, as a Muslim it will surely add your left book deeds.  I need to put myself together for me to be in focus back.

I've learned its all in your mind, if you convince yourself not to play along with your heart, it will help you to  focus with what you are doing and achieve your goal with minimal cursing. Channel all the anger to something for a positives outcome. And the think is always belief that you love your work, it does help me in a way in dealing with my emotions.

SENSIBILITY

Have you ever feel that at one point all you wanna do is to leave behind everything and just lost with the time?

Its been more then six month since I start working and amazingly I've not cried once even how pressured I am despite of me being a sensitive person. Work and work that is all in my mind. People might say that I'm too serious.But I don't know why all of sudden I'm in the emotional state. Perhaps I'm stress but there is something missing which I don't know what it is. Yet, I've not cried.

Still clueless with what's going on, with the emotional state of mind you can't really work.Its like you are falling into pieces where the world is trembling down. At time like this, I wish if only there is someone who willing to lend their shoulder and listen to all my complaints and at the same time won't make your life harder.

Is it because for once in my life I just want to be pampered and spoiled without me saying "hello I'm alive you know"?I've been trained to be independent since I'm young but sometimes you need to be pampered to know that there are someone who cares. Maybe I'm just tired of thinking of others.

Still fighting with this irrational thought and becoming more sensible when I pour myself with workload to distract from all this thought and it works. I might gain my sensibility back but the question now is how long can it last?

Ups and Downs

Life, there are always ups and downs... There are times that you feel you need to strangle somebody and there are times you laugh till your jaw drop...

There are times when people you have no difference than a Hippo or worse, grandmother, you will surely explode. But when I'm back at my rational state, who are they to judge me???

I have a life and I do no need to advertise what I do just to show that I have a life. As long I'm happy with it, you have no right to say anything bout it, when you, yourself are not at the right state to comment...

Angry with life, angry with people around us will eventually make our life pause for a second till we realize it is not worth a penny.