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Life at times can cruel. In changing life the process can be either easy or hard depends on the surrounding. Sometimes it can effect your relationships in life no matter what type of relationship it is.

This entry I will be talking about relationship, I'm no longer miss nice or polite that will just close one eye when you are taking advantage. If you tent to be calculative,  I can be either.

I will be happy and wish for your success but just don't forget me. I also need my support. Usually people are like that when they have nothing you are first in the list but when they got all they need you might not be in the list. Its not I'm jealous but its my principal not to finish work half way. I've work my ass off and suddenly you are there just to continue what I've done. How can that be fair? 

I can keep asking myself this question but the answer is all in my hand and head. I have to think straight before I take the next action. Its just no matter who you are in my heart, this miss so called nice no longer a nice person that you can step around.

Why? Oh Why?

Its been a while since my last entry and for this past two months there are a lot of things happen to me. I guess it it is right when people say 'anything can happen in a day'.

I've been sick and still recovering. When I was diagnosed with arthritis, I felt a bit down as I have not enjoyed much yet in my life. When it attacked, I hardly move as all my joints are swollen and I easily get tired. I cannot stand long and walk much anymore. My movement becomes limited my mood is always on mood swing. Sometimes I envy with my friends who can wear heels and have an active lifestyle. My family and close friend keep helping me to look for solutions and thanks to them for all the support.

Time fly by just like that. Now I have started my practical where at the beginning I'm  a bit hesitated but as time goes and I've started to adapt, I begin to like the environment. As I've learn to accept my faith another big test come. Another of my aunt past away. Losing your parents is hard enough and for me it is like happening again and again to me as I grew up with all my aunts. I just hope I can remain my sanity and I don't know how long can hold on.